12/19

~ December 19 th is ......6 days before Christmas. Time to wake you up with ( 10) mistletoe ( one for each spot) Slowly let's begin the foreplay...( hands unnecessary) .. .....by first letting me kiss the feet that bought you to me...then with long kisses along the inner thighs let me get you to smile, deep kisses well below the belly button to get you to open your eyes, tender kisses behind the knees to give you reason to curl, passionate kisses on the nape of your neck to awaken your senses ,soft french kisses on the lips so i can taste you, kisses on the buttocks ( 2nd taste), delicately caress with a kiss on the ear ( do you hear me, now), one kiss each wrist ( softly) & finally let me slowly kiss your chest ( a dozen spots to cover) before I begin again ( call into work I am not done providing you with an early Christmas present, I will unwrap you) .......romantic? ~

~ My Midnights consists of ~ Whispers within your ear of whatever you desire/ Allowing me to provide the cocoa butter oil massage therapy, slowly guided by the dim light of the moon & stars / A fair amount of exchanges of deep kisses in the mouth, periodically parting just for air & eye contact/ Emotionally as well as mentally you have decided it's midnight & the only way to communicate is physically ~

~ Alone ~ It takes a lot to take over the world/ Difficulties always seem to pop up but decisions have to be made/ Every day you deal with trying moments/ The lessons of today prepare you for the drama of tomorrow / Never have I ever felt more alone than today but I will prevail

~ I remember a long time ago being in love. Free with my thoughts, love making in 8 hour periods, capable of making decisions not under stress, romantic when least expected,poetically inclined with my mind, unusually sweet when focused on her & open with my thoughts ~......yes I miss the days of being in love.......

~ Life, Liberty & the pursuit of happiness ~ ( not an easy road to take) ~I just got off of work at Ikea. Worked 945 to 700...a friend heard that I was going to walk home and offered a ride. He also volunteered to drop me at train station. ( I work 12 to 7 am as usual on sundays) Nice people why so few out there? So here I am about to rest and a few thoughts cross my mind. How do I study when i have to leave hours before work with no car ( hopefully I get it Friday but that's no help to me now)..You want something with substance in your social life..what was the words a friend this past weekend once said my equal, how is that possible? Had a nice First romantic( flowers,book,bag meeting/ date this past Saturday as usual my defense mechanisms were up (when does anyone put them down, these days?).....i said to myself since I spent all my money Friday and walked to work Saturday..what is the reason one goes all out. Who know what happens the next day so why not.I just heard for the first time a homegirl of mine, her husband sadly did her wrong so i said hey..i am there for you if you need to talk so sorry about what happened to you. Maybe every little step I make is not always the correct one but I try. Reflections of an over crowded weekend. Life is about experiences no need to pretend just ~ BE ~....

~ I have to admit some days you have to reflect on what you did so you don't make the same mistakes( Mon)/ foolish decisions ( Tue)/ trust the wrong person with critical information ( Wed)/ hand in the wrong papers (Thurs)but T.G.I.F.....rest,body & motion is all that's required, think about it Saturday morning~

In life you have choices to make and this being 9/11....i am proud my fellow Americans made the correct one

~ Always remember something..I have no problems answering a question if your looking just for an answer but if your looking to start a discussion & the subject is my personal life. I cannot accommodate you because I don't discuss ( seek out the opinions of others) on the choices I make in my life thus I live with the results good or bad & there is no need for additional imput...period ~

year of solitude

~ On occasion one has to focus on themselves before being able to experience life in its entirely, thus it's is time for a serious year of ( reading, wine, relaxation, writing, staying inside, getting in physical shape, monitored workouts towards shaping the body to what I wish it to be, kobukai ju jitsu classes, managing things in life & moving to a better apt after lease is up) Solitude for me ~

notice

 ~ Everybody seems to want to be critical of someone else and how they are living. Funny thing is that we all have flaws and it is better to take the time to examine your own before you take notice of others ~

starbucks

~ At Starbucks today a Lady ( I use the term very loosely) asks ~ Why don't you have a mustache, goatee or beard like every other man I meet or come in contact with? ~ Black gentleman ~ Unlike other men that apparently make up the surrounding areas of New Haven, I need not look like others to fit in ( I am comfortable in my own skin), have interest in doing something just to give evidence of my age( thats what I have a license for) & plan to grow hair on my face unless I decide to do so( this is called freedom of c h o i c e, spelled it out for you just in case your still confused), do have a nice day. ( turns and walks away ...no need to stand next to...ignorance)

~ I think it's very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not defined by another person ~ Oscar Wilde ~

~ Desirably speaking I want someone that I can spend time with/ my time unimportant to you is precious and I value it/ Some people keep forgetting that life is sort and intimate connections are more important than you think/ Sensual thinking I wish to have someone just for me ~ 

Rainy days has its ups and downs/ means you can either deal with the reality of. Fact is that the work you planned to take care of today you have to put off for tomorrow, which means that it's more to deal with the next day. Rainy days seems like a good thing but in reality you wish it was sunny

 ~ You know... if your doing well and you see someone ( you know, of course)  that maybe needs a ride ( as long as they are going your way), could use some positive advice ( if your capable of giving some)  or just wants someone to listen to their troubles  (and you have the time). What wrong with being there cause you never know  if things down the line would ever be reversed ~ 

~ Sometimes to achieve a goal in life you have to step away from everyone.....means less play time and more organization of this ONE life you lead ~

~ Even the best advice comes with some sort of price attached to it, not everything can be taken care of with money ~

A July day to appreciate

 I miss the dawn of waking up to kisses, hugs followed by soft whispers of I was dreaming about you/ Mellow afternoons filled with air conditioned rooms, strawberry topped sundaes with deep ( fingers touch all the right spots) massage therapy / T.G.I.F ...cause with a moscato wine tasting evening of walks on the beach, watching the starry moon filled sky & slow dancing to Maxwell..( hopefully ahead)..It looks to be nice summer ahead 

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Random

~ Whatever thought that you come up with when it comes to control of the activities of others is a sign of past times ~ 

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By the way

~ So you made a lot of money, just had a child or recently got married, how very nice but do not try to literally impress or stand out by accomplishing something many that walk this earth can do, just BE yourself by doing something significant that only you can do ~

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~ Mistakes ~

~ We all turn down the wrong street/ Walk in the in correct direction / With butter fingers tend to drop dishes where their not supposed to be / Wind up in an accident due to misinformation / If your human your prone to make mistakes nobody's perfect ~

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Remember

Try to remember that what you say cuts like a knife/ what you say matters/ what you speak makes people stand up and listen...paralyzes the weak, amazes the strong/ words you let loose renders others incapable to form a possible comeback 

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~ In life we all have our ups and downs what's very important is that you get up after falling down ~

~ Games are what people play when they have nothing left to add to the current situation at hand ~

~ Sex means absolutely nothing unless both parties are willing to sacrifice what little time both have ~

~Eyes front when I talk to you ~

~ Whether fully clothed or naked as the day I was born, what face or body that I see looking back at me in the mirror is WHO I AM....if your not willing to except me like my mother did when she first held me, love me like I am supposed to be & respect my focus to better my life, close the door on your way out of my life ~
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~ Dollars ~

~ Money happens to be the heaven to those of us in need of food, clothing & well being/Green pieces of paper with white males on front also can be the hell on earth for those of us struggling to fold enough together to establish rent, car travel & well being/ It is the balance of an angel & a devil that cash seems to dance between when it comes to making a living in the U.S.A.~ anonymous ~
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~ Well ~

If you can not exist in our society honestly then you need not to exist at all. Negative activities is not necessary under any circumstances
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